LIFE PAINTS A PICTURE

Everyone's life is a picture,
Painted by only one person,
Life itself.
The picture shows everything you're doing,
And everything you have done.
But sometimes, Life gets tired.
And doesn't want to paint a picture.
So, Life sends problems to stop you,
If you give up, your picture is finished.
If you keep going, so does your picture.
So the question is:
How soon do you want to see your picture?
Do you want to see it now?
When it could be so much more?
Or later, when there's so much more than before?
It's your choice,

I'll keep going.

MY MASK

I hide behind a mask
You can't see my face
Looking at first glance
I'm in a happy place
The truth is, that's a lie
But you can't really tell
that in the back of my mind
I think the world should rot in hell
What's the point of living
If we are all going to die
What's the point of being happy
If in the end we're going to cry
But this is something no one sees
This is something no one knows
And yet deep inside of me
This feeling of hatred grows
So even though this mask reveals a happy side of me,
I use the mask as a shield to look at what others can never see.

As A Little Girl

remember those dresses
going off to church
couldn’t make messes
edge of seat did perch.

remember being sick
when you couldn’t play
clock slowly tick
parents would pray.

remember the school
learning brought joy
felt like a fool
first kissed a boy.

remember the night
thunder did boom
daddy held you tight
there in your room.

remember having fun
no knowledge at all
that to be in the sun
would lead to downfall.

I remember a girl
so pure and sweet
her life yet to unfurl
the world at her feet.

Faces Of Evil

Faces in the water and trees grow bare
I sit silently dying wondering why you're not there
The watery grave grows shallow with fears
Draining away from my face all you see is tears
The water is disturbed with thoughts of you
I remember your eyes so blue
Your smile brightened up every ones day
But there in peace you will lay
Your bones will wear away but I'll always remember
That cold day the 4th of December
Faces reach out of the water and the trees aren't there
Ravens circle and shadows dance with such a bright glare
The arms of the beast crown from the grave
As the heroes slice him so brave
The water dries up
The faces rise up
The puddle is gone
But not for long
The puddle is deep
With secrets it had to keep
Faces in the water are no more
Shut and lock the unclosed door

Trash

You're throwing it away,
you're wasting your life.

You're too young to know what decisions to make.
You're too stupid to know what opportunities to take.

You're just a teenager,
too rebellious and wild to think.

You're on the brink of falling over the edge.
Don't take a step too far, be cautious,
right now you're on the ledge.

I'm just trying to help, so don't raise your voice.
It's not your choice anymore.

You must do as I say,
you can't have it your way.

You don't know what you want.
You can't have what you hunt.

You can't have your own dreams,
you have mine.

I couldn't live my life to the fullest,
so I'm going to make yours the dullest.

Don't waste your life or throw it away because you're living it for me,
my way.

I am

I am love in the face of hate
I am kindness in the face of ridicule
I am strength in the face of diversity
I am patience in the face of the mule
I will not run away from fear,
I will not run and hide
I am bravery, I am pride
I will make a difference in this world, big or small
That is my promise to me , my promise to all

You are the sun

Watching the world through a blacked-out window
You see no sun,
Yet people see light shining in your eyes,
You are the sun for others

Watching children play, wishing you were them,
You start to cry,
People see your child- like tears,
Yet nobody seems to care

Giving light to others,
You realize you're alone
Your flame is burning brightly
Yet you still feel blind

But if you look deep into your heart, and open the window,
You realize,
You are the sun,
Your stars need your brightness,

And one day you will find the special star,
Which will add to your flame,
And you will burn brighter then ever,
Spreading joy and happiness for miles around.

Difference

There is a part of me
That feels I am different from everyone else.
Something that I can't quite see,
Something that I can't quite feel,
Something so unreal.
But this 'thing' is always there,
This 'thing' with others, I will never share.
So I push it to the back of my mind,
All the thoughts of boys and clothes
And make-up, it is hiding behind.
Sometimes, when I have almost forgotten,
It comes back with such ferocity,
Angry and unforgiving.
I feel so lost and sad,
Whatever caused this feeling
Must have been so horrible and bad.
A lost memory or something else,
I'll never know,
Whatever it is,
I know for sure,
I can never let this feeling show.

Drifting

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

Think

Should you always say what you feel
Think, is the person you're telling going to be able to heal
Is what you're saying necessary for everyone else to know
Just because you're thinking something, maybe you should just let it go
Everyone else around you may not be as strong
Some things need to be kept hidden and you should move along
You don't know where that person has come from or where he's going to go
What kind of day he's had, you just don't know
Before you blurt out everything you feel
Think, is the person listening going to be able to heal?

End of Innocence

Secrets, secrets
Lies, lies
She sits in her room,
and cries and cries.
There's no more trust
In this girl's heart.
She finally found out
That life isn't perfect.
She lived in dreams,
As children often do.
But she crawled out
Into the world everyone knew.
Things that once were.
Happiness once known;
The truth of it all
To her was shown.
Her little heart
Will never trust again.
She'll never know
A real true friend.
No more trust,
For no more lies.
She'll sit in her room
And cry and cry

Would gladly walk a mile

i would gladly walk a mile
if dat would giv a chance 2 see u smile
call u my frnd
dats a lie
mean more 2 me
can't explain y
u can see it in my eyes
feelings dat i can't describe
tried so hard 2 express u
feelings dat i hold inside
whn i open my mouth to speak
all just seems 2 fall apart
words jus seem 2 scatter
if i were left wid choice
i'd only speak wid heart of d matter
no matter wht i seems 2 do
it always comes out so wrong
many times i think it though
once it hit my mouth
i jus stumble along

Thinking of You

by:Neha


Thinking of You
Just sitting here and thinking,
Thinking my thoughts of you
Dreaming of how things would be
If you were right here too.

I hope that things aren't going
The way that you had planed
I only wish that you were here
And I could hold your hand

I dream of being with you
Of being by your side
Of waking up beside you
of love that we won't hide

I hope one day that you'll be more
Than just a dream at night
That I can bring you happiness
And love with all my might

But until then, I'm here alone
There's nothing else to do
Than dream of you and count the days
Until I'm there with you........

a first crush

by:ankita

The first time I saw u,
u swept me off my feet.
Your smile,your style,
made my heart miss a beat.

Same class as we were in,
for me school became a treat.
Ah! That sweet hi and the killing smile,
early morning what a great greet.

A rockstar on d dance floor, an Einstein in class,
it seemed u belonged 2 a special elite.
And as we started becoming friends,
inside me grew more heat.

Day and night I thought of u,
and each little jesture of you,
Would I in my mind a 1000 times repeat.
Ignorant as I was, I thought,
u also accompanied me in this love fleet!

Now that schools are over,
In your life you might be having many new greets.
But for me till now,
none could generate the same heat.

Oh my first crush, I want you to know,
That even your memories so sweet,
Make my heart miss a beat.
Make my heart miss a beat.

When you said there was another !!!

I never thought my heart would die
But when you said there was another
My eyes started to cry
For I knew it was really good-bye
I played hard to get I admit it, I was wrong
But I didn't think you'd give up so fast
I thought you'd play along
I'll go home and listen to sad love songs
I can't concentrate because you stay on my mind
My fairy-tale ending is over now
I wish I could go back in time
Stop being scared and make your love mine
It's always my heart that pulls me away
Should I look in your eyes and feel alone
Is it my fault I couldn't stay
But you know me, I'll be okay
I never thought my heart would die
But when you said there was another
Believe me. I did more than cry
My heart actually died.

Jusss u....

Laying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night.
Your arms are wrapped around me,
And everything feels right.

You kiss me sweet and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch,
You help me feel protected
Under the sweet night sky rush.

by:neha nayan

My world before me is perfect.
There's nowhere else I want to be,
Except laying underneath the stars
Hand in hand, you and me.

Just when everything is perfect,
And you seem so delicately sweet,
A rush of wind comes past me
As I'm swept beneath my feet.

Nothing could be more right,
There's nowhere else I want to be.
Let's take a walk my only love,
Hand in hand, you and me

I really love you.

by:shweta

IN LOVING YOU, I HAVE EXPERIENCED
THE HAPPINESS, THE HURT,
THE FEELINGS OF FOREVER,
THE NEED TO BE WITH YOU AND LUV YOU,
IT'S ALL HERE INSIDE OF ME

IT IS YOU I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT,
IT IS YOU I ALWAYS MISS,
AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOU
BECAUSE YOU ARE
THE ONE I LUV

TO ME,
LUV MEANS FOREVER,
NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE
OR KNOW ME
AS YOU DO

YOU ALWAYS KNOW
WHAT I AM THINKING,
AND WHAT I AM FEELING,
DEEP DOWN I'LL NEVER LUV ANYONE
THE WAY I LUV YOU.

Why we fall in Love ???

Have you ever been in love
and asked the question why?
Did you ever think of it
then breakdown and cry?

When together, did you laugh,
or gaze into their smile?
And wonder if they felt the same
or were they in denial?

Have you ever closed your eyes
when you're about to kiss?
When thinking of the special things
that put you in this bliss?

Why should we fall in love
when all it brings is pain?
It hurts inside to know the facts
that all their feelings change.
by:shweta

There's no way to get over
the memories that may be;
falling in love was so much fun,
yet facing reality.

How I felt was disrespected
by you are playing with my mind
or could it be neglect ion,
that wasted all our time?

Now I lie convincingly
to show that I don't care
in exchange, I've lost my mind,
for my heart cannot repair

LIFE WITH HER

I woke up in the morning
And found that it was raining
Instantly I knew the day will be a mess
As if I could already cope with the stress
Hesitantly got up from my bed
Secretly wishing that all my bosses were simply dead
I gave an envious look towards her side
She didn't needed to get up for an hour at least

Reluctantly, ate my breakfast and got dressed
Remembering the client who said he was harassed
Wondering if I would get the memo today or the charge sheet
When suddenly I heard the silent rasp of her feet
I pretended not to hear and picked up my sack
She came sweeping and hugged me from the back
I wished I didn't have to go now
But there was nothing to avoid the row

I took leave with a small kiss and a reluctant goodbye
At the station, I felt I was about to cry
I reminded myself of the unending rat race
We were expected to do the impossible with a smile in the face
I steadied myself and was ready for the world-hell
Cause finally anyway I was coming back to my shell
Oh my luv, you are the energy for me to live
Just ask me the world and to you I shall give!

because of u

Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you.

I am a lonely room with an empty screen

"I am a lonely room with an empty screen"
Today is a new day
And it seems like my life is about to fade
.... away like I say
And there is no way that there can be a new one made.
So I have to depend on someone....
And it seems like they dont care
It's all just isn't fair.

They say this and that
And I sit here trying my hardest to belive
and that all they do is make me sad......
"I am a lonely room with an empty screen"

Have you ever loved somebody
So much it makes you cry?
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right?
No regrets with life......

Why cant it be like we dream
Why cant it?
Like we want it to be
It isnt so hard to see.

I dont know why it isnt clear to me to understand
The way of life
And living on a beautiful, yet, unbelievable land

Whats there to say?
When I said it all
It seems like what I have to say is all fake
It pains to belive the depths of this life

Now my life is done and went away
To a place where I could not have been
Now is it time to have a new life made?
Or what I say,.......is right?????
"I am a lonely room with an empty screen"

NO APOLOGIES

by ALANIS MORISSETTE

I reach in my heart to see
If your love is alive in me
But now I feel alone
My feelings turn to stone
My heart makes no apologies

When an apology's made it isn't always enough
To erase all the past in a moment
Whenever I need you the most
You always leave me behind
With a word from your lips I'm alone

You've been blind not to realize
All the love that I hold inside
So tell me why do I keep holding on...holding on

What I need is your sympathy
Like a light flowing into me
But I will never give up holding on...holding on
...my heart makes no apologies no no
my feelings turn to stone... I make no apologies

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stayin frnds forever

A friendship is like a winding road.
You never know where it is going to go.

But there is something that I do know,
which is that our friendship will continue to grow.

Your friendship is so important to me
and staying friends is a guarantee.

You always know how to make me smile.
You are truly versatile.

Being friends with you is such a treat.
You are always so sweet!

I want to thank you for being my friend
someone on whom I can depend!

I want you to know that I want to stay friends with you!

I Wish i knew

I Wish i knew a pretty song
I Could sing for you...
Special words of love and joy
So we could start anew

i wish i knew a story
To tell you every night
A Sweet Romantic story
To make your heart feel Light

I wish i could write a poem....
A verse to make you see
You mean more then all words
and all it holds for me.

Plz Be My Best Friend Forever..

I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'm going to listen to you like no one has
Even if I might be too busy.
I'm going to be there when it counts
Not this time, but every time you need it.
I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'm going to be your support, lifting you up
Whether I have the strength to or not.
I'm going to treat you like it's your birthday
Not that day, but every single day of the year.
I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'll listen to you
I'll offer you advice
I'll play with you
Sometimes letting you win
I'll be there for you
When you're filled up with strife
I'll pray for you
When you're struggling in life

I'm going to be the best friend you've ever had.
This day, the next and forever...

Because that's the kind of friend you are for me.

Y I LUV U

I got your back
You got mine,
I'll help you out
Anytime.
To see you hurt
To see you cry,
Makes me weep
And wanna die.
And if you agree
To never fight,
It wouldn't matter
Who's wrong or right.
If a broken heart
Needs a mend,
I'll be right there
To the end.
If your cheeks are wet
From drops of tears,
Don't you worry,
Let go of your fears.
Hand in hand
Love is sent,
We'll be friends
Till the end

Wen do i luv u...

I love u when u walk,
I love u when u talk,
I love to get the love
From ur collected stock.

I love u like a rose,
I love u in every pose,
I love to hear u talk,
Of kissing me on the nose.

I love u when u miss,
I love u when u kiss,
I love to love u love,
'Coz it provides me a bliss.

I love to know u r mine,
My love u r a sweet rhyme,
In fact the reality is hunny,
That I Love u all the time.

dont evr give up

Don't ever give up
Failure and Success is in everyone's cup

Rain becomes more enjoyable if it follows a sunny day
Food become more relishing if for days Hungry you stay

So, don't ever give up
Failure and Success is in everyone's cup

Gold becomes beautiful ornament by molding and heating
Marble becomes beautiful status by carving and beating

So, don't ever give up
Failure and Success is in everyone's cup

Pebble becomes smooth by constant rolling
Pencil becomes usable by sharpening

So, don't ever give up
Failure and Success is in everyone's cup

When you are in love and you get hurt
it's like a cut..It will heal
but there will always be a scar
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
Forget who hurt you yesterday,
But don't forget who loves you tenderly today
Hearts are not had as a gift
But hearts are earned...
I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could f***ing drown you in them.
How you laughed when i cried each time i saw
the tide takes our love letters from the sand!

i m Ur Friend..

    I'm your friend,
and I'm here if you need me...

I can see you struggling right now.
Things that were once familiar to you have changed,
leaving you to feel a little lost and worried.

Life challenges us to grow
by putting us in different situations.
But if things seem too difficult,
remember I'm your friend.

You mean a lot to me,
and I'm here if you need me.

Just Wanna Say

forget him

Missin u.....

by maheen

One day I was Missing You
so
I stayed up all night
staring at the stars
I started crying because..
The stars resembled your eyes
The warm weather resembled
your arms around me,
The peaceful music
Your wonderful words
The laughter of children the next door
the joy you brought
The sun rise
the beauty you brought,
The light the sun produced
the light you brought to my life
See every thing reminded me of you,
But the real you wasn't there
I held a picture in my hand
that you were in
I held it so close
and it helped me fall asleep,,
And finally got my rest
But I am still missing you
so Come Back To Me.!

LONELINESS

by anonymous

Loneliness presses down on me,
Like darkness upon light at night.
Thoughts of you consume my mind, my heart
My body, my soul, my entire being.
Memories of us,
Burn inside me like fire--
Warming me up on the coldest nights--
Comforting me in the dark--
Keeping me alive.
You are my life fire
And forever will never be long enough,
To overcome this love.

my silence...speakssssssssssssssssssss

by shubz

my silence has got words for u.
my every moment is worth full of joy ,wen i think abt u.
my questions get their answers at ur single glance upon me.
it seems all the stars r fabricated in my dress,makin me a gal who is pretty and lively.
ALL MY DESIRES R SATISFIED AT UR ONE SMILE.
keepin that in my heart,i can bare foot ,travel thousands of miles.

i knw,i may not b the person of ur dreams.
i may not b DAMSEL of ur choice.
i may not be havin sweetest voice.

BUT I M A GAL,havin heart which is pure...
who will always accompany u wen u feel lonely and bore.
Take ur time,think abt it even.
i will wait for u , even if i m riven......
i can wait..till i will get HELL or HEAVEN ,
after tht i ll listened to ALMIGHTY and do the work if any given.

JUST TO END THE PAIN...

by ajinkya

Silently he wept
Dying a silent death
Dying yet not dead
Alive yet lifeless
The soul still lay trapped in him
The disease wanting to decay him a little more

all of 20 he is
surrounded by friends and a foe
they don't want him to go
Besides him sits his best friend
Weeping no tear
But wiping all he can
He know's what his friend suffers from
But his suffering he does not know.

Friends come and go
Kin and cousins visit him too
All go but best friend stays
To see him suffer
But he wonders when will this plight end
Asks God "are you so cruel?"
"Then cruel let me be"

And then he did it…
He killed his friend
And finally he wept at his bedside
"forgive me God,for this act of sin
In heaven I may not get a place
So put me in hell
Where for my acts I shall redeem"
But when I am up there
For once
Only once
Make me meet my friend…
For I just want to ask him
"does it still pain or did I make it end?"

Rain

by sheva

Wind whirls spinning
light soft drizzle
sprinkling my
spirt sprout

Soothing my lone sore soul,
and sole-- unbrekable yet shattered
heart which was yet tore apart

I am a torn tart
by rain my rough heart is caressed
Rain drops
dripping away my sorrow,
washing my tomorrow's tears


There is no morrow dawning
besides this eternal lonely rainy night
-- of shadows...

my best frnd

by kritika

When you are sad,
I will dry your tears.
When you are scared,
I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried,
I will give you hope.
When you are confused,
I will help you cope.
And when you are lost,
And can't see the light.
I shall be your beacon
Shining ever so bright
This is my oath.
I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?
Because your my best friend

from soul to dust

by ankita

written-off
in despair
and utter confusion
this desperate soul searches for pain
theres nothing it cud survive for
so its trying once again.

profusely it bleeds
but still doesnt die
broken and ashamed
it asks itself...why??

in its final moments
it tried
to remember the past
wen it cried
but the farther it reached
the sharper ws the pain
cuz it had been betrayed
time and again.

the value it gave
to nears and dears
only to look bak n not find them there

for every truth
it gathered the courage to bare
it managed to gather
a few cold stares

for some it ws a routine memorandum
watching it hit
the rock bottom

and now as it ws ripped
sprinkled upon with salt
it awaits its fate..as its life to come to a halt...

in its life
from faith to faith
and trust to trust
my dead soul has finally been
reduced to dust.....

a drop of tear

by anonymous


A drop of tear came out and asked me,
Why you called me out?
Why are you so sad?
Why are you feeling lonely?
Why are you weeping?
Heart didn't answered
Than drop said
Never call me out because
I want to live in you
Never feel lonely because
I am always with you
Never become sad because
Accepting me no one is yours
I was with you when you had born
I will be with you till death
When you weep, your eyes will become red
When eyes will become red than will be pain
If there will be pain than you will be sick
If you will be sick than you will die
So I don't want to lose you because
I am yours and will be always yours
Ever and forever

my luver gal

by mehmood

knew a girl,
who wanted to fall in love.
And one day, she did fell,
by some one's charm she was spelled.
She knew that even her boy was ready to swear
and sacrifice each and every tear.
But life is a game,
it's not always the same.
She once saw a nightmare,
that gave her the feeling of participation in a questionnaire.
The dream was too scary to resist
she felt as if she won't any longer exist.
All the plans of having fun in sun,
were fired using a hired gun.
All she wanted know was to give up,
and ask his Romeo to pack up.
The wonderful story,
that ne'er took the shape of a love story,
or to be specific, ne'er existed,
had to lay down, on the death bed......

sunte ho??

Aik Baat Kahoon Agar Suntey Ho ?
Tum Mujh Ko Achey Lagtey Ho

Kuch Chanchal Se , Kuch Chup Chup Se
Kuch Pagal Pagal Lagtey Ho

Hain Chahney Waaley Aur Buhut Par
Tum Mein Hai Aik Baat Bohat.......
Tum Apney Apney Lagtey Ho

Aik Baat Kahoon Agar Suntey Ho ?
Tum Mujh ko achey lagtey ho

Yeh Baat Baat Pe Kaho Jaana
Kuch Kehtey Kehtey Ruk Jaana

Yeh Kis Uljhan Mein Rehtey Ho....?
Kiya Baat Hai Hum Se Keh Daalo

Aik Baat Kahoon Agar Suntey Ho ?
Tum Mujh Ko Achey Lagtey Ho

dard e ishq

nazar se door hota ja raha hai
k woh majboor hota ja raha hai

ussey hum sey taghafal ka gilla hai
jo khud maghroor hota ja raha hai

azzal sey rouh to apni thii ghayal
badan bhi choor hota ja raha hai

mohabbat jurm banti ja rahi hai
ajab dastoor hota ja raha hai

khuda jaaney teri aankhon mein kya hai
k dil majboor hota ja raha hai

mohabbat ka ahdhoora sa fasaana
buhat mashhoor hota ja raha hai

Plz Be My Best Friend Forever..

I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'm going to listen to you like no one has
Even if I might be too busy.
I'm going to be there when it counts
Not this time, but every time you need it.
I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'm going to be your support, lifting you up
Whether I have the strength to or not.
I'm going to treat you like it's your birthday
Not that day, but every single day of the year.
I'm going to be the best friend you ever had.

I'll listen to you
I'll offer you advice
I'll play with you
Sometimes letting you win
I'll be there for you
When you're filled up with strife
I'll pray for you
When you're struggling in life

I'm going to be the best friend you've ever had.
This day, the next and forever...

You Changed the Way I Looked at Life -My poem

by angel

You walked lightly into my life
Captivating and lovely to my mind,
At first, I never cared who you were
Now I don't know who I am without you,
You kissed me
I felt my world change,
You held me
I heard my heart awaken,
You loved me
And my soul was born anew
You walked lightly into my life
Now my heart knows who you are
And with every breath
And every step
I take down lonely roads,
Your hand is my staff
Your voice is my guide
Your strength my shelter
You're passion my awakening.
You walked lightly into my life,
And all my pain
You took as your own,
And all my fears
You cast into the sea,
All my doubt
Lost in your eyes,
You walked lightly into my life
And no matter if you choose to stay or go,
My life is forever changed,
Just because you loved me
For a moment in time.
And because I choose
To love you
For the rest of mine.

He Broke My Heart

by angel

you were what I wanted
and that wish came true for a while
it was perfect
all I could think of was you

and then along came temptation
you tried to be strong
you didn't want to break my heart
but you didn't hold out long

my friends told you to be honest
even if it meant to hurt me
apparently my love wasn't enough
you wanted to be free

I spent some time crying
I did some stupid things
but all I really wanted was the pain to go away
and now its been a couple days

I guess you are happy
and that is what I want
even if its not with me
you wanted to be single
and that is what you got

so much for all your promises
I guess you forgot

she says I should move on
and find someone new
even though you broke my heart
all I really want is you

with luv

love,a word undefine.
everyday running through my mind,
how much i love you,
how much i care,
the feelings are there,
but not much time to share.
yet still holding on,
will never let go,
will always be here.
through thick and thin,
rain and sunshine,
thinking of you until the very end.
your name says it all,
that deserve to be,
in a picture frame printed by me.

Ode To The Man I Sometimes Call Dad

by angel

I lie awake at night
And converse with the darkness.
We discuss many things,
The blackness and I.
We had an interesting conversation
The other night.
I have been wondering lately
What it would be like
To be someone other than me.
If I were more like her,
Would you still Hate me?
If I weren't like me,
Would you realize that you produced two?
Could you know that we are equal,
Although not the same?
Could you be that open-minded?
Doubtful.
Is it possible for you to see me
As the woman I've become,
Rather than the girl
You once knew?
I've overcome many obstacles,
Climbed many mountains,
Achieved many dreams;
But still you refuse to respect me.
You tell me that I'm worthless,
That I won't amount to much.
You call me a loser
I Cannot take it any longer!
I will fight back this time.
But am I Strong enough
To fight that which makes me weak?
No.
I will continue to let you belittle me
And treat me like a fool,
Like I am merely a stepping stone
On your path of destruction.
You tell me to respect you
But how can I respect a man
Who doesn't respect himself?
I can't honor and obey you
Like a true DAD should be treated.
Because in these past twenty years,
You have never been a "Dad" to me.
You are only my guardian, my provider -
Not my Dad.
You've provided me with the basics,
What I need now is for you to help me;
Love, Laugh, be Free,
Live every moment to the Fullest.
Until you can fulfil that need,
I will let the darkness
Heal my wounded soul,
Because you never learned how.

choices will fade away

by angel

Someday you'll let your hair go gray
and wear it like a crown.
Someday you'll buy a floppy hat
wear it each day to town.
You'll greet your neighbors with a smile
and find that they smile back.
You'll share those tree-ripe peaches
you've hoarded in a sack.
You'll finally buy that ice cream cone
for the little girl next door
Who always looks so longingly
as the truck sings down the road.
Someday you'll write that letter
to your friend who moved away.
Confess how much you miss her
every single day.
Someday you'll forgive that old love
who ripped your soul apart.
At last you'll tuck his name away
to let a new love start.
Someday you'll cry your final tears
for the past that went awry.
You'll find the joy you seek in life
and see through clearer eyes.
But if you put off the choices
you need to make today,
One day, someday will be yesterday
And your choices will have faded away

You were my FRIEND!

angel

I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.

Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter ripples like water
Together, we are.

Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.

Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.

And then time begins to roll
and rear it's ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.

Slowly, surely,Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and shimmers and splits.

Shattered shards cascade down
Spurred by angry, lashing words
Contorted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.

The scars run deep
Jagged clefts in our souls
We have suceeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.
So you move on
And I remain

We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.
Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears

New friends, new life.
Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The flippant toss of the head
The enclosure surrounds you
I cannot come near.

From behind my glass window
I know more than those within
I see the hurt in your eyes
I know the pain in your smile
I have been there before - I love you

Why do you pretend?
I hate to see your pain
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.

What we had once
We can never have again.
The scars run deep,
But I still care.

Miss U ALL!

angel

As I sit alone
With the warm sun on my back
I realise something's missing
A part of me which lacks.

Could it be the trees,
Reaching for the sky?
Or could it be the children,
Walking home, who pass me by?

Perhaps, I miss the birds,
Chirping sweetly above my head?
All I feel is restlessness
A part of me is dead.

I know now what it is.
Now I realise what is wrong.
It's the feeling, they call solitude,
All my friends are gone.

Of course I know,
That as we grow,
We have to make our way,
We all must plot a different course,
To go by everyday.

I always thought my friendships,
Would be round,
Just like the moon
But you see,
I am not ready,
For it all to end so soon.

I miss their happy laughter,
Floating on the wind.
I miss the many secrets,
That circulate within.

The only way to keep,
Our friendships woven tight,
Is to keep in contact always,
And then we'll be alright!

Just tell me u love me!

by angel

I want to feel love like yours,
While making sure
I give you stars unlike anyone else's
I want to feel your love.

And in the morning
when I cannot remember my night,
I still can't think of what to say
to express how I love you.

I am running in my head
among all my stories and theories,
I can here the screams of my heart
that I cannot get used to.

There are things alone,
that only you can see,
Tell me you love me,
and I will take you there.

There are things alone,
that only you can hear,
If something is lost,
just tell me you love me,
and that will be enough.

And at the world,
you do not laugh,
For you know that there are
a heap of lies which tip the scale.

There is a love you alone can feel,
Just tell me you love me,
and I will let you embrace.

There is a place where you can be with me,
Just don't be afraid to love me.
And before you can experience this
you must tell me you love me and follow your heart.

Dark stain upon my heart!

Smile in their faces and play their silly game
No one need know that my heart is torn asunder
None of this really matters to me anymore
Everyone thinks that I have it made
Not realizing that I spend my nights afraid
I have never known fear my entire life
No one has ever been able to make me blink
All of that changed with the breaking of my heart
The man in the mirror scares the hell out of me
He knows all my deeds and might just set my soul free
There has been a change in his eyes lately
Facing the weight of an empty bed and broken heart
Despair and loneliness are becoming his friends
They are slowly weaving their way deep into his brain
Upon his heart they have placed their dark stain
The call of the ocean is all that is keeping him at bay
The sound of the surf, the scent of the sea, and freedom
Wash the sins from your soul and bury your troubles in the sand
The man in the mirror has no control over you in the light
I can handle this cold, lonely bed one more night
The winds of change are blowing cold
I can feel it stirring in the air at night
The forecast calls for pain and a change
Blameless, shameless and losing control
I will win this battle for what is left of my soul
Standing strong is all I have to do
One minute, one hour, one day at a time
I made myself a world that worked so damn well
Until my heart was torn beating from my chest
Now all I can wait for is peace and rest

An Angel To Me

by angel...

The moment I opened my heart and let you in
I saw this great love starting to begin.

I opened my eyes to a vision of you
I hope, I pray your feelings are true.

I have loved and I have paid the cost
And I have felt the pain of the love I lost.

But, now, I think I have truly found
An Angel who walks upon the ground.

You go beyond all limits for me
Just to show your love endlessly.

I could search my whole life through
And never find another 'you'.

You are so special that I wanted you to know
I truly, completely love you so.

A GIFT OF LUV

by anonymous


My gift to you is my love
Given from deep within my heart
It is the best I have to offer
And its yours until this earth we depart

You have captured a part of me
A part so very fragile that I am in fear
For it is my heart I have lost
To you my love, the one I hold most dear

I chose to love you now
With all that I have and all that I am
And I pray that God follows us
To guide our steps as we cross this land

For it is with His blessings
We will live most at peace with each other
For He is the reason after all
We found one another ........ I Love You!

NAKED I STAND

by aakanksha

Before Myself
Naked I stand
Apathetic and Vulnerable.
Craving for Breath
Contemplated.
Agonizing Soul swallows
Relentless loneliness.
Invocation lifted
On broken wings
Bequeaths no apology.
Amid shadows
I shroud
As upon me
Death inquires.
Derangement encircling
This tragedy
Into my World
He has adorned.
Heretofore
Deceased heart
Consecrated by
Poetic script.
Everlasting
Ethereal voice
Affords ecstasy.
Impending lucidity
Reprieved
By majestic presence.
Lyrical darkness
Illuminates consciousness.
Profound
Eyes of Jade
Bid hunger
To endure
Life's cruelty.
From a poisonous world
He has extricated
This defenseless Being.

is this luv???

y pray

lv u like life of mine
n give u what i like
make u feel how special r u
n try to reveal my lv for u


u r what for me
how i prove it to u
may be u find it funny
as well as my freinds too


ur eyes on me
make me shy of me
i felt like wind
when u asking me
is the way u move
my heart n me


i know dat u, palyin wid me
n count me as ur fan, madly
still my heart feel gone for u
n trying hard to be near you



is this love,what we wanting
treating "us" as our enemy
feeling good for other one
chosin wat we dont like
yet be happy for ur love1

The Dark Walker

by black heart

The stars are just holes in the night
Lets cut our eyes and dance in he night
Forget everything and dance
The salsa of death
Let the blood flow
for i am the black walker
The sun is just a nuisance
Lets call all dead
and dance in he glorious night
absorb wonderful darkness
and get drunk on blood
dancing on roting skulls
for i am the dark walker
for i am the night.

.........wondering soul.......i guess

by pray..

why is dis happn to me
i was so happy in mylittle world of peace
my life feels like burden to me
and my happiness seems to lost its street


why this happen to me
i feel to die in my dreams
to get the pleasure of being set free


why this happen to me
now none want me there
every1seems me as nowhere
why is dis happn to me

next please............

by reshma

'i hav nthg to write' ,he told me.
he was staring to the empty sky
with little hope in his eyes,
he lookd to my face.
'open ur heart,search ur memories',i told him.
for miracles often lies hidden.
opening his minds eye,he klosed his eyes.
a silent prayer i said for him........
now i saw a grace in his face
a spark i saw in his smile.
he has found his miracle
to carry in his heart till the next miracle to happen.

What Went Wrong?

by pankti

I don't know why...
But deep down inside,
I feel a pinch, a painful twitch
Yes, I loved you
And still do…
Then, what went wrong?

When I think about me with you,
It reminds me of the most beautiful memories I ever spent
With someone I loved so greatly and wholly
Then, what went wrong?
But when I think about the times we had,
I detest myself for being so faithful.
I approved with everything you offered,
Irrespective of what I thought.
I never gave you a chance to complain,
Then, what went wrong?

I don’t think so,
You can ever be loved by someone the way I loved you.
There was so much to give and so much to share,
So much love between us and too much to care.
Then, what went wrong?
Candidly my day started with you and also ended with you
Then, still where was I wrong?
Why was I blamed for something I never did?
Yes, I was held responsible for not loving you,
Which on the other hand, I solely n truly did?
I still wonder what went wrong.

My own friends desolated me
I was left all alone to suffer the pain.
So many queries gushed through my head
And no one to answer them.
But one question haunts me till date
And I still wonder
WHAT WENT WRONG?

towards serenity.........

by reshma

we both were children,
in the arms of cupid,
our toys were cupid's arrows,
and our playmates ,cupids love.

our youth we spend in
the carnival of love,
we were adorned with red roses,
and crowned with loving hearts.

the spring time of our life passed.
but cupid carried us,
in his mild hands,
mindless we got carried away.

time,the mirror of life,
sung in our minds,
the aria of reality,
spiltting us from sensuality to serenity

LOVE OF MY LIFE

"You are the love of my life"

"You are the reason I'm alive"

And Baby...Baby...Baby.

When I think of you how saved me...

I go crazy.

I've never known love...like this.

And it fills me with a new tenderness.

And I know...I know...I know.

You're in my heart...You're in my soul.

You're all i can't resist.

And I need to tell you...

"The first time i held you...

I knew you are the love of my life."

I spent a lifetime waiting.

Always hesitating... until you.

I was lost so deep inside my shell...

Till you came and saved me from my self.

Now all I really know...

Is I need you.

"You are the love of my life."

All the joys and tears that i cry.

And Baby...Baby...Baby.

You don't hve to say a word.

I see it in your eyes.

As we stand together...

I promise forever...

Till the day that I die.

"You are the love of my life."

I spent a lifetime waiting.

Always hesitating...until you.

I was lost so deep inside my shell...

Till you came and saved me from my self.

Now all I really know...

Is I need you.

"You are the love of my life."

"You are the reason I'm alive."

sweetest frnd

God made the world with a heart full of love,


Then He looked down from a Heaven above,


And saw that, we all need the helping hand,


Someone to share with who will understand.


He made a special people to see us through


He also made glad times, and sad times too,


The person on whom we can always depend,


And a someone whom we can call as a friend.


God made friends, so that we will carry a part


And so of His the perfect love in all our hearts.


You are like Rose, and so My Sweetest Friend,


And, I need you forever dear, in my whole life!

luv... the beautiful feelin

by anonymous

luv... the beautiful feelin!
i love you...
to the zenith
to the xtremes
to the fullest

but then y is it tht u see
but r blind at the same time??
u fell it but
r numb at the same time??
u wanna say it but
r dumb at the same time??

wat is my mistake....
is it that i love u
even if its the hell out of me??
or is it that there is no one as important as u
even if it comes to counting everyone on this earth??

ur each gesture makes me feel tht i m yours
but thn y is it lackin in ur words??
ur eyes reveal the truth
thn y doesnt ur tounge accept the very fact??

i have nothin to giv u except for my love
which is endless n immeasurable
which has merged in u such
as if sugar in milk...
once merged, inseparable!!

jus wanna tell u the three beautiful words
U R INCOMPARABLE

I cant live without you

by bryan

If I had to live my life with out you
Crying all day and all night is what I would do
My love for you is the most precious thing on earth
Like our first kiss or our Childs birth
I want to do it all with you
I want have kids and say I do
Ill be there for you if you should need me
Always in my heart forever you will be
To say I love you is still not a strong enough meaning
If there was a word stronger then love that would be my feeling
If the road we walk looks to far
Ill love will lead away like a guiding star
I cherish every little moment with you
Every little word everything you do
Your more beautiful then the reddest rose
Every time you look at me every time you smile my pain goes
I cant imagine a life with out us together
I cant imagine us being less then forever
When people ask me to describe love, one word is all I do
I think for a bit n smile and say the only word is you
When I look into your eyes I can feel the love that is to be
Your the air I breath the reason I live you are my destiny
I wouldnt be able to live life with out you
Your my girl, my dream come true

dedication to my luv

by smita

If ………I could…………

If I could but capture u to myself,
I would…

If I could but steal away with u into the wilderness,
I would…

If I could but share u with none else than God ,
I would….

If I could but embrace u each dawning of the new day,
I would…..

If I could but touch u now,
I would….

If I could but feel ur fingers like feathers upon me,
I would…

If I could but have and hold u for eternity,
I would….

If I could but open my heart so that u could see how I feel,
I would….

If I could but have this love , I feel reach out and
Communicate to ur soul,
I would….

If I could but with words tell u how much I LOVE U,
I would…..

Criminal's life

by anonymous

Living a criminals life
Doing everything but nothing feels rite
Every smile that I make
It pinches me so hard inside
That my heart cries

Standing up every single day
Just to realize I have failed
I am bruised taking it all
Now I just want to lay and take my fall

Betrayed by life
Even the death doesn’t accept me
Can someone tell me?
Is it the life that I am living or the life is living me?

Lost the my purpose of life
My heart is beating frost and ice
You gave me the warmth to live
And now that space is void

You abandoned my soul
And now it wants to abandon my body
No more can I make any decisions
No more do I know my role

Alone I lie in my bed
All day and all night as if dead
Life only reflects when I cry
Only thing I can do is hope and try

Please forgive me for my sins
I never knew it and that I never meant
Please bail me of my crimes
Take me with you and take me away from this criminal’s life

d pain...

by anonymous

life is a lesson which we all learn
luv is a season which we all cherish
wat we remember is d pain it gives
and forgets wat were we bfore we luvd
its always a new xperience to be in luv
d more u believe in it
d more it hurts u
d sky seems to be dark wid no lite of hope
every1 says i ws wrong
u tell me if i hd done nething wrong??
den why does evry1 blames me
i was dere wenevr u called xcept for d tym i hd sum fear
i wntd 2 be away from ur memomries so was it worng????
dint wantd 2 b away 4m u,bt dis world made me do so
nd u all blame me for it,so jus hav to say
u cn always put d blame on me!!!

bud of luv

by nakdu

You fill up my senses,
As you are my sunshine.
Thoughts of you makes me blind,
Which makes me feels that your are beside me always.

Your tight hold in my palms;
Push me out of thrones.
Dreams of you gives me endless sleep
Deeply immersed in those flowering moments with you

Smiles of you makes me lie awake
And walk in rainy nights
Mere touch of yours made my life musical
And naught more

Its you who taught me to talk to butterflies
Thinking of you I go in fetch of hailstones
Makes me half dead when you leave
So don’t be away, my sunshine

In this tender age of mine along with you
Like a fairy
On the pathways of yellow jasmines and tulips
With a lighting candle

All these irritating thoughts of mine
Made me mad and think why I feel all this
Then I found that,

Someone has sowed a seed of love in me,
And there bloomed a bud of love.

Aint For Me The Cracklin Roses

by saurabh

Aint For Me The Cracklin Roses
aint for me the cracklin roses...
but the thorns are only mine....

aint for me no smiling faces...
but I share this smile of mine...

aint no rose as sweet as you...
like an angel's life divine...

but still I'm the luckiest guy...
because i have YOU....
and you are MINE

Special sum1...

by ruchi

Here my wishes for someone ver special.
One who s always been sweet
n added charm to my life.
Talkin about makes me feel shy
warmath of whom takes me to the sky
One whos my herst who s my soul....

Never complaints watever i do
always finds reason to peove me true
One who takes ou time
and listens even to my silence
makes me happy even when m not smiling
U did the best one can do

Now its my turn to priase myself
how lucky i am tht am with u

IF i want myself happy
i have to have u
IF am prayin for anything
it has to start with u

so if i say god please give
the person waht he wants
then u are not the one
whom am prayin for....
its me for whom
i want the BEST............

The First Rain Of My Life...

by anu

The First Rain Of My Life...
The First Rain Of My Life…

It was all dark and vain,
The day I fumbled the tough pain,
Standing solitare in the lane,
I experienced my first rain…

The juncture is hard enough to tell,
I had sanked down very well,
Sky firing thunderbolts,
And clouds raging,
The night I felt my first rain…

It was all the first time,
Didn’t knew it’d come so early in life,
Was amazed with its ability of reconciling,
The moment I decoded it’s feeling…

The magical hunch of rain,
Diffused in my vein,
Felt its difference for the first time,
Forced my heart to rhyme…

Drop by drop it ran over my face,
With great excitement and pace,
I danced to its endless music,
Skipped the emotions sorrow n panic…

It was the best time I had ever,
Had made me refreshed forever,
It was a service devine,
When I sensed THE FIRST RAIN OF MY LIFE….!

How Soon Things Change....

by angel

The day that we first met,
in my mind I still see,
you sitting in the hunch-on, looking for some company.
I alone myself, sat down with you that day,
neither of us knowing what the hell to say.
But we got through the awkward times, and quickly came to be,
the best of friends to each other, we could ever be.
The closer we grew, the more we left, the other world behind,
just me and you we jumped into a new place totally blind.
We prayed together our friendship forever, and always would stay the same,
but time has passed, only memories last, and little friendship remains.
WE ONCE WERE ONE! I screamed at you, I want my best friend back!
But we both realized at once it was that bond we lacked.
You think it doesn't hurt me, to see us back to two, looking to my left and right to see there is no you.
But we both are moving on now, lets do it gracefully, I hope our friendship still lives on in you memory.

BETRAYAL... I fuckin hate myself!!!!

by angel

Betrayal of a friend's feelings, whether intentional or not, can rip friendship apart, and leave both feeling empty. I hurt someone I care about very much, and the pain was too great for him to bear. His friendship is like a shooting star flaring briefly across the heavens, a moment in time that I will treasure forever. Maybe, with time, the garden where our friendship grew will blossom again. Do I respect his wishes and never talk to him again, or do I try to make things right? I don't know. Until I figure that out, this poem is my emotional release.

An echo fades into the night,
an eerie mournful sound.
A shooting star disappears from sight,
and I crumble to the ground.
There is no life within this garden;
my sobs are the only sound.
I have poisoned the honeyed fountain
where your love could be found.

Dazed, I stare at the stars above,
my grieving howls fill the night!
Unintended betrayal of love
has hidden you from my sight.
I remember how it used to be
when we shared our fears and delights.
You are a treasured friend to me.
How can I make things right?

Feeling afraid, cold and lonely,
I long to tell you how I feel,
but you don't want to hear me.
The pain for you is much too real.
Should I back away and build a wall
and block away how I feel?
Or, should I give you a call?
We both need some time to heal.

An echo fades into the night
as our friendship disappears.
How do I know what is right?
How can I ease my fears?
If I do call you again,
would the old wounds reappear?
I can't stand to cause you pain.
Hurting you again is my worst fear!

There Is A Moment

by angel

There is a moment
Between the flick of a light switch
And the sinking explosion as the room becomes revealed.
I lies between the short, sharp, shock to the skin
And the subsequent intake of the chilled air to the lungs.
It is the time that dwells in the void amid the collision of earth and a entity caught in hot-blurred decent,
And the precise moment of the abrupt termination of movement.
It is woven into the slamming of an oak door, it is the core of the ticking of a clock.
There is a moment.
It can be harnessed.
It can change everything

A Living Nightmare!

by angel

Haunting every feeling
Leaving cracks upon my heart
A tremor taking over me
And tearing me apart

The nightmare as I'm dreaming
Killing me each time I wake
A cut that bleeds a little more
With every breath I take

Like chains inside my prison
Or a noose upon my rope
Shredding every wish I've had
By tearing out my hope

The tears behind my smile
And the truth as I pretend
It's pain that I've kept hidden...
It's the parting with my best friend

-damsel

He Hasnt Noticed At All

by angel

She always sits near him somewhere out front
and he can't help himself when he stares.
He thought her man knew how lucky he was,
but now knows that he doesn't care.

He sometimes can hear her talking with others
and she handles herself with great ease,
her beauty is real, not from the make up
and he hopes she will be his to please.

He sometimes pretends she's not commited,
so he can tell her things that he feels,
but he's afraid to chance he'll offend her,
even though his feelings are so real.

She made sure she sat real close to him
and blushes at thinking he knew.
When he looks at her face, she feels his eyes
and knows he can tell she is blue.

She feels envy when seeing him talk to the ladies
and wonders which one he might choose.
She wishs she could tell him to think of her, too
but is afraid when he chose she would lose.

He asked tonight and they've danced many times
and her group hasn't noticed at all.
This woman he lives with no one else wants
is now finally having fun at the ball.